Coming to the end of 2011

What else is there to say?

Life doesn't turn out as planned, you will never expect any of this to happen.. ain't life grand!!

C'est la vie..

We go through the happiness, expecting the sadness, go through the heartaches, enjoy the miracles and the surprises.

Living life as it should be lived now, with ups and downs. Life is fun, not so healthy yet fun..

Everyones Married

Its all done.. Never want to go thru a wedding again.. EVER!! but it was fun la. seeing all the siblings huddling together for me.. hehehe

A lot of last minute arrangements though.. now is just to wait for the kids to get their turn. Thats gonna be fun..

The Last Wedding.. MINE!!

I wish mum and dad were here, they would have had more friends attending, more relatives to invite, made a bigger 'huha' out of this. But they are not, so its left to May. She's almost doing it single handedly, she deserves better. GAMBATE May..

We had a pre wedding celebration when mak and Sway chik was here last month, it completed what was partially missing. FAMILY.

Plans for the wedding..

27th August 2011 : All of us are planning to stay in Melaka before going to Air Kuning, just not sure to stay together or not.

28th August 2011 : 11am to convoy to Air Kuning for the Hantaran

2pm Wedding Lunch at Gemencheh for May's side of the family

Ends there

2nd September : Stay overnight at A'Famosa

3rd September : arrive to Air Kuning by 8.30am

Tea ceremony for May's side of family

Depart Air Kuning by 9am. Should arrive Subang Jaya by 11am

Tea ceremony for our side of the family

Dinner at Holiday Villa Subang at 7.30pm

Then it will end another chapter. Another chapter that mum and dad should be around for.

2 1 4 8

From our address, No 2 SS 14/8B, that has been our code, mine at least.

I am preparing to leave home. Our home since 1981. All our memories are here, all our experiences from here. Every corner here is mum and dad. The kitchen is mum, the garden is dad and mum, the fridge is dad, the hall is mum, curtains mum, storeroom dad.. I can go on forever, but the final is that I am still leaving this all behind.

Almost Gong Xi Fa Cai

Haiz.. Its coming to Chinese New Year season.

Just when I thought that I was getting strong, its the same feelings of loss again. Almost 1 year ago mum played ginrummy, i proposed, dad was dead tired, but the whole family was together. All of us were really together. Who would have ever figured that it was our last CNY together. No Mum, No Dad.

All these years this house has been noisy every CNY, and now this year it will be in peace. If mum and dad was to come back to visit, they wouldn't recognize it. A lifeless house, no longer the home that we all shared during CNY. Can I let this happen? What if they come back for CNY?

Already Christmas Again

I still remember last years Christmas celebration. It was WOW.. the whole family was there. it was so noisy, mum was still around. dad was healthy. Thats the best Christmas I can remember. Our last christmas as the entire family.

This year, we will keep up to the traditions, just can't help feeling empty. We are doing it all by ourselves now. Nya with Satay, Trix and Cher with soup and salad. Me with Turkey as usual. Wishing mum and dad was still around is useless. They are already gone. But I can't understand how some can let go of the sentiments so fast.

What can we do for mum and dad this Christmas?
. Be the family that they have always wanted us to be.
.. We, a family together.
... Accepting each other and our own little quirks

All of us miss you today more than any other days. This will haunt us, this will hurt us, this will give us something to talk about for our entire life.

I thought that we would at least have dad here to console for Christmas. Never expected us to be consoling ourselves.

At this very moment, I have no drive again. Like when dad passed. I just don't care for anything.

By and Gone?

It's time to move on.. and let things in the past be left there.

For a Family, Love Unconditionally. Teach the unlearned, let them be taught..

Mum and Dad would want it that way, they only want us to be together.
Can we forgive? May we forget?.. Resentment is dug into the heart, not placed into it.

Dear god. Even YOU who blots out my transgressions for YOUR own sake; and not remember my sins. Put you in rememberence; be contend together; state our case and let me be acquitted.
If you all mighty are willing to forgive, how can we not? Though i will never forget.

Learn Sid. Remember what you have been given. What Dad told you.