Final Resting

Dad and Mums final resting place.. Sounds very final, and the very end of it all. It is..

Now finally their funeral arrangements are complete, and it is still unbelievable that mum and dad are no longer with us. How did this all happen? That I cannot comprehend, it does not seem real. But it is..

Still That Tingling Inside

ORIG POST REMOVED.

Too Quick, Too Soon, But Thanks

From begining to end, it took only 25days.

Dear god, Thank you for your promptness to my prayer. Thank you for your wisdom. Thank you for your mercy. Dad is in your safe hands, at home with you and Mum. Now with your taught lesson, we will continue living, keeping safe from harm, appreciating every day as a blessed gift from you dear lord. We thank you.. Amen

Dad was well taken care of by Esther, in every way.
Emotionally as a loving daughter, a friend, a confidant,
Medically as his doctor, pharmacist and pain reliever,
Esther gave him direction and purpose when Mum was away.
THANK YOU ESTHER, you are the God Sent Angel for mum and dad. This is true. And your children the mini angels that gave Dad extra boost of happiness after mum too.

Happy Fathers Day Dad..

Dad passed away on the 20th of June 2009 at 10.50pm.

Once again I saw the last breath of a parent. Esther, Trixy, Steven, May and I were at his side. He went quite peacefully and very quickly, he chose Fathers day.

So many things happened before this, some good and some bad. I had a lot of time with dad, and spent as much of it with Dad as I could. He told me a lot in the final days, things that he had told me before, but with more meaning now. He made sure that he prepared the most important thing for us, especially me.. A home.

His last drink was Coke, and he enjoyed it.
His last fed meal was Tuna Mozarella that I FORCED fed, then he complained that I didn't give him chance to say NO.
The last conversation we had was with trix, steven and Esther.
The last acknowledgement he gave was to Ryan when they came to visit him last.

Thanks dad for everything. No father can take care of us and sacrifise for us as you have. You have done so much and there is no way to repay you now for what you have done.

( But I recited the wrong verse for you. You would have felt safer with
Even though I go thru the valley of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me )

From MUM to DAD

On 25th of May 2009, we started to find out about dads condition. Jaundiced and tired, Thank God Esther saw it.

Then after a series of check ups, we found that dad too has cancer. And of the Liver like mum. But he is strong, and has the will to fight it. Thats my dad, when the going gets tough. He gets tougher than tough. Nothing can beat dad. He is the one, the only.. THE DAD!!

Though we kids are going through a trying time, we all have the same thoughts i am sure. He is our Dad, and all that we can do we will do as he has done for us so many times. As he has done for Mum so valiantly.

Today I started to pray again. After forsaking HIM after MUM died, I have a reason to pray. This is my prayer:
Mercy dear God for Dad. Mercy dear God for Dad's family. We have forsaken you and have learnt by your will. If this is the path that we have to follow to be put in our places, I do accept. But please show mercy on us and on Dad.

Later today Dad has to go to the Sunmed for a minor surgery. We expect it to go well. But still all the same we are all worried. Also again in prayer
Dear Lord, thank you for this effort. Please protect us and give us strength.

ALL 4 + 1 MARRIED

Finally ALL we kids are married.
We are already continuing our lives. Life doesn't end because a life ends. The others alive continue living and growing and remembering.

Who we are, how we behave are the traits that you have shown to us. We are who we are because of you Mum and Dad.

Living on.. Please be there..

Mums final wish is to see me get married. I still remember it very clearly. It was on the 1st day of Chinese New Year 2009 when we were all wishing each other, when my turn came she said "I only want to see you get married" and thats when i saw the tears in her eyes and I cried too. It was the first time I saw mum cry ever in my life.

I am sorry you can't be here mum. You were there for everyones wedding and took active part in the most important time of their lives. I wish you were here now, I hope you will be here..

All the documentations are done, its now just the planning of how it will go through. I want you there, I want your support there. I want you to accompany dad there. It is a difficult time for him especially, he used to be the backbencher in the arrangements. Now he has taken lead and helping for the arrangements. This is scary-la. I told you on the day we got back from Air Kuning too, when you said "I am so happy". Its SCARY-la.

I am already feeling the missing of someone on the registration day. And its you MUM. You will not be there, but I am still hoping you will be there. It will be on the 30th of May 2009, on my birthday I will get registered, the day before your birthday. That has always been our 'special' mum, that made us the same.. I miss you mum.. Please be there.

Dad has done a good job mum. You would be proud..